With tears on my face.....

Totally Horrendous, Hazardous, and Tremendous...

Thank you for ruining my good mood. THANKS for your "freindly" reminder that I am gaining FAT!

Do you know that you are so kind that I just want to punch you in the face right now???

Umm, maybe ONE hard punch is not enough. Maybe I also need to bleach and shred your face till become tons of white meat flakes and give it to crocodiles and let 'em eat till only left with bones and I will give the left over nasty bones to the hungry sharks. There you gooo...!

I swear to the most sacred animal in India that I fudging hate you.

Phhssss, please stop telling me I am gaining weight! Enough is enough. You know that your preach about fat is getting into my nerves.

I am AWARE of my weight!! I know, I am freaking over weight but you don't have to announce "that" out loud in front of everyone. Now, people start to focus on my fat, My fat belly, my fat elbow, my fat chin, my fat cheek, my fat s**t..

Holy Molly Guacamole.

I noticed that I am awfully fat but I will work it out. I will do something with my fat arse. Just be patient and wait till spring ends.

AND. AND. AND

I also BLAME the TV!!!

TELEVISION makes FAT EPIDEMICS ACCEPTABLE.

with tears on my face,

I am torn apart....sniff.

The End

Double-faced

Everyone is double-faced in this world. And, yes including me. I am double-faced (that includes my liquid foundation)

Nobody is honest. People love to gossip about others. Everybody is double faced.

What? You disagree??

Fine, then prove it to me that you are 100% honest, prove it to me that you never bitch about people. You want to preach about honesty and integrity??? Gah, you better see yourself in the mirror before you start preaching at me.

and totally, totally, YES, YOU the random stranger who happened to read my blog or accidentally drop by my blog, you are double-faced!!!

I am sick with people who exaggerated about others being a liar and double-faced.

and YOU? YOU think you are pure and innocent? *toilet flushing sound

With such a thick face cheerfully telling everyone that you *hate* gossip, *avoid* talking about people behind their backs, and you are honest, kind, helpful, and you don't bitch about people. uh UH ah ---yawn, whatever ah!

And, now you are totally bitching about me...^^

If you ask me if I talk about people behind their back, oh, yeah TOTALLY. And, dont you dare to criticize me because i know you are doing exactly the same thing I did.

suffocate. Gotta go....

Bye Bye

what do you mean by " We are BFF's now?"

Its weird when someone told me that being special is important.

What she meant by that...

I'm not going to let others join us. I just want to hang out with you because I want you to feel special. I don't want you to feel left out.

Newsflash! I dont give a crap about it because first of all, I dont have any desire to pick whom I want to hang out with!! I dont!!! and I dont care!!!!! How many times I have to tell people that I AM NOT picky and not interested to feel special. I think it's people options to whom they want to be around with. I have never had any problems if my friends wanted to invite some people to hang out with us.

Although, honestly, I don't really like being in the crowd because I am more interested in a two-way conversation and getting to know better about someone is my main interest. So, hanging out with bunch of friends usually wont give any positive outcome (at least to me).

Here is what I think, when people hang out as a group (consists more than 3 people), there are two possible negative outcomes

Prediction 1: someone will feel left out--thats why I don't like to have dinner with bunch of friends at a restaurant. Someone within a group will feel alone and lonely regardless of how many people sharing the same table.

Prediction 2: From a silly conversation lead to a sharp argument and confrontation. Someone will end up crying nonetheless.

Shouting and yelling in a club when the music was awfully loud and you had no choice other than screaming in people ear would not do any good to me. I think it's more in a sense for stupidity.

Yeah, yeah, I am a dork and I dont have a social life, whatever. My point is I prefer to hang out and have a good conversation with 1 or 2 friends. That is what I called it the quality of conversation.

Ahemm..let's get back to business!!

Anyways, "Picky" does not exist in my dictionary but IGNORANCE is the most suitable word for my view on friendship. But, again, I am willing to be friends with anyone but I am not going to pursue a deeper friendship relationship.

In my view, I dont care if "my friends" want to hang out with other crowds, I dont care. Even if they decided to ditch me or they decided to ignore me, or even worse they decided to defriended me on facebook, GO AHEAD because I will find someone else .

I used to be really sad when the people acclaimed as my friends totally ditched me over their friends or over their boyfriends--whatever you named them. I was sad and the feeling was totally horrendous. Ironically, they would come back to me when they needed someone to express a sympathy over their exaggerated breaking up story. It was an unhealthy friendship relationship, but I gotta deal with it because I just thought they were the only friends I had.

That being said, I have been there and done that so I don't care anymore.

seriously, whats the point to keep an unhealthy relationship??

I can join a club or organization and meet new people there. Broaden my knowledge and be happy. Find people who have common interests rather than being stuck with "friends" who obviously didnt bother to recognize me there.

AND I AM AWARE OF MY GRAMMARS!! very welcome to laugh but remember to let me know so I can fix em. I also have a thick face, so whatever DUDE!

Hollaa!!

Gosh, I miss my blog sooo much

*smoochies my pizookie blog, hugs and kissess...mmmuuahhhh!!!

I am busy doing nothing LOL. LOL. LOL. Oh, yeah, I was wondering why people used "LOL" and "WTF" in like every sentence in their blog. Hmm??? Are these people running out vocabulary? or, maybe "wtf" and "lol" are like salt and pepper. You feel something is missing without "LOL" or "wtf".

You know what Im saying. You need salt and pepper whatsoever on your meal coz you dont want to taste ol' plain on your plate.

Speaking of vocabulary, you know, I took some time to practice pronouncing "vocabulary" word. Yo know what I am saying like I can say "vocabulary" word perfectly like other english native speaker. Seriously, tt's hard to say it for the first time and it was emberrassing coz people though I was saying " Fuck a Berry ?:)

What, Fuck a Berry? HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

What the hell man, I was saying vocabulary, man, you shall fix em your ear. Your ear may have some shits that you need a drill man coz they are hard like rocks--hardcore ear wax. Eh, ear wax sounds funky, I like too call em earpoops or earshits coz they sound awesome. AHAHHAA...wtf.

Anyways, my friend taught me how to say "Vocabulary" like normal english sounds,

Vo-cab-U-larry

Anyways, let's get back to our business. Whew.Let's started. Dude, come on dude, stop humping the horses. wtf.

Hhahha, so random.sigh. I am supposed to write about the Bavinger House!! I promise to that old man that I will upload the bavinger pics on my blog. sigh. Oh well...

Shall we continue to pursue the mysterious bavinger house???

stay tuned dude, hola, hola^^

Btw, I took the picture!!!!

Sigh, I need Botox!!!

Looking at myself in the mirror.

and, ..sob..sob

I can't believe I already have wrinkles on my forehead. GAhhh..I am blaming the sun. Sun is the culprit...*sigh. Eh, it's my fault too not applying sunscreen. *sob *sob

Yo yo yo know, I am soo emberrassed when people staring at my face. I was like..."Umm..are they staring at my wrinkles or, hence, my fresh pimple going to erupt...golihhh...",

Yawn, I know, I should accept my imperfection and let people stare at my wrinkles and my tremendous bumps endlessely. Yawn, I know I am far below stunning category. whatever leh. You know what, I pledge myself to accept the way I am as long as Santa Claus gives me Botox ^^

Anyways.....................But, the major problem is the fine lines on my forehead...=((

"Ya'll out there whos complaining too much about little zits appear on yall chin, please, look at around yall, HELLO, stop complaining about your tiny bits that can be covered by BB cream coz mine, my damn wrinkle is sooooo visible. The goddess BB cream magic, max studio foundation, mineral powder magic whatever wont cover my wrinkle!! Frankly, you can see the super fine lines on my damn forehead from the planet mars. Yo yo happy yo."

I am 23 and I have wrinkles. I have tried every wrinkle lotions exist on the planet earth, from the cheap one such as the one from walmart to the fine pricey medicated one to reduce the appearance of my wrinkes but none of them work. so sad leh. whatever the commercial promised.whatever man.

I am still blaming the sunshine for the super delicate fine artsy wrinkles on my face. Sincerely, I regret to spend so much time outside under the sun heat and not apply sunblock. Stupid me!! I prefer to have fair skin like Xiolongnu from The return of the condor heroes (check out Xiolongnu so fair so pretty..) rather than have olive skin, deep tan and wrinkly face.--emberrassing. Seriously, have you ever seen chinesse heroine with tan skin tone and wrinkles on their forehead?

Noooo.. they are goddesss and have dewey look because they only came out at night. nonsense. nonsense yawn. Eh, I know Xiolongnu is already dead but whatever, I want to have fair skin and glowy...(dang this woman is wayy too much to handle..golih!)

Ahemm, almost forgot,

"I still dont get it why people here are very obsessed to get tan. Tan is equal with the risk of skin cancer/wrinkles/fine lines/disclorotion. I used to love sun and sun tan and run outside under sun shine but not anymore. Sun is my enemy!! If sun is my son, I will disown sun for being my son..? heh..what the ffffff???"

Btw, I just purchased Baby Face sunscreen spf 50. I know my face is not baby face but at least the sunscreen is compatible for my delicate wrinkle surface..whatever leh. Yawn, I know leh my face is soo "messy" looking not pretty leh, but I am a human too with wrinkles and wrinkles need some love too and the love comes from Botox Dear.

Whatever ah, I just don't like sun and I dont want my skin to get tan. I want to be fair...mm...lets see...mmm...maybe like korean or japanesse fair skin. Aren't their skin so lovely? I adoree their glowy dewey clean smooth skin.

I keep saying "Dewey'.egeheh..what is the fuss about it? !#$%^&ewiugvhsrghgz;bzr d nlxbgj

And bronzer is supposed to imitate the dewey look of natural sun kiss, isnt't it, right?? Yeeaahhhh,, lets rock the sunkisss...muaahhh!

You can pick any bronzer that is suitable for your face. Bronzer wont give you a cancer, just make sure when you pick a bronzer, it doesnt contain bismuth whatever because this bismuth whatever can enlarge your pores and accumulate the whiteheads and blackheads on your nose and below your lips.

"Many mineral powder brands contain bismuth whatever..so watch out before you decide to buy 'em. I have problems with bare minerals because after the aplication my pores are more visible and more whiteheads appear around my mouth--just nasty look. The ugly duck is much sexier."

Anywayz, let's get back to business!!

Sun is the cause of all the wrinkles epidemic. I regret to spend so much time with sunshine. Sorry, sunshine, gotta ditch you for the sake of my face.

In conclusion, Botox is the ONLY life saver that can rescue me from the darkness of the wirinkles epidemic. Botox will be my christmas wish next year. coz botox is soo expensive and I cannot afford it.

"Ho..ho..hoo... sweetpie, you are such a lovely girl (*whisper inside heart :egad, this woman has tons of wrinkles and acne--so gross) tell Papa Claus what do you want for christmas?" said Mr. santa claus.

Imitating the cute voice sound from japanesse anime mari chan soso chan voice kawaiii whatever,

" Papa berryy Santa Claus Kun, I want BOTOX.."..(=^.^=)

AAaHHiiyyayhahahahhaa...what the Fff..?

Anyways, loveeee the soundtrack

The Return of the condor heroes soundtrack translated to Indonesian language. Lol.lol.lol..



dumm..drumm.dumm duu dummm...

Dear John

I was sooo bloody disappointed yesterday because my friend cancelled the plan at the last minute. Ugh. Ayaya.

See, I spent the whole friday night just to clean up my apartment. I cleaned up all the grease that accumulated on my kitchen stove top. I wiped the sink basin and the counter. I also washed all the dirty dishes.

I vacuumed the carpet and sweeped the dust and pick up my hair that scattered everywehere on the floor.

I also spent some hours to scrub the bathtub and toilet bowl and the sink. Anyways, I found black stuff on my bathtub. Dunno what it is but its looking gross. I sprayed with clorox but it is still visible like before. Whatever.

At least my apartment is clean and neat, and I am so ready to receive compliments from my friend.

Sigh.

and, my friend cancelled the plan at the last minute.

Sigh. Fine.

It's alright because I have to learn how to tolerate people in any possible circumstances. Indeed, Bloody Maria still loves him and I have no plan to cast a spell that can turn him into a rabbit.

Ahem, Just kidding.

He got really busy on Friday and he got to work on Saturday too because the whatever software he was working on must be ready to use on Monday.Working on Saturday must be pain in the arse--

I hope he can visit next weekend because I really want to go to POP's at Arcadia, OK. I heard POP'S burger, milshake, and soda are famous.

Enough complaining. I still had some fun on the weekend. Dunno why, but the late night supper at raising canes indeed was really good. The chicken finger and the sauce were heaven. God bless Raising Canes.

Anyways,

I am definitely going to watch Dear John. The trailer is very demanding to see esp. for people of my age. Unbelievable...Channing Tatum is BLOODY handsomeee!!! HOT! We want CHANNING TATUM!!! Super tan and nice six pack...the only factor that triggers me to see Dear John (=^.^=) Sorry, Michael Bolton, I have to ditch for the sake of Channing-oh-my-so-sexy-Tatum.



and My fav. song from Dear John Ost.
by Joshua Radin & Schuyler Fisk - Paperweight



such a boring blog...^^

So weird some people still visited and commented on my blog. They must be bored to the max haha..and to kill the boredoom, they aimed to read my tedious and super lame blog entry. Hhaha...*sigh I have never had any intention to publish my blog for public consumption. The only reason I can think of is to share my story with my brother. Indeed, I am too lazy to set my blog to private. Oh well, whatever.

Late Night random thought

According to "a survey", people prefer to have sex with someone who has an STD rather than with obese people.

WTH?

I need to do research to check the validty of the survey but i'm too lazy, so forget it. Anywayzzz...

Well, actually, that "unreliable" survey is right in some ways.

It is impossible to determine if someone has an STD/HIV from outside view. However, being an obese is a different story because obesity is very well recognized in the public eye. Similar issue to someone who has tons of pimples covering their face, blotchy red, or the acne white stuff going to explode. People will recognize those immediately.

Ah, come on don't pretend you don't judge people by their physical appearance. When you met somebody who have "issue" in their appearance, you automatically made a judgment although you didnt say it out loud. But, you did it, right. Don't lie to me.

To make it clear, if you were given the option whether you can "sleep" with a very attractive human being (with a hidden STD and you don't know about it) or with an overweight with full of blotchy red pimples covering face (no STD but you still don't know), which one are you most likely to go for? hence, you also forget to bring condom.

Hey, my question has nothing to do with people IQ, personality, etc. Just solely the physical appearance.

Be honest, please.

Fine, fine, don't tell, don't ask.

But, you see my point, aight? Don't get me wrong, I was not trying to discriminate. But, if some people got offended, well sorry, this is all my opinion.

Anyways, obesity is not my interest topic to discuss in further. I wanted to focus more about sexual transmitted disease.

So here we go...

Regardless of the extensive sex education campaign, some people don't dare to check upon their partner or even themselves whether they are free from STD/HIV. Frankly, some people fail to apply safe sex based on word-of-mouth trust.

"As long as you say you are clean, I believe in you", said the partner.

You never know that the young well attractive man/women you just met at a public place and ended sleeping with might have STD/HIV/herpes.

"Oooops, I forgot to use a condom, but you are clean, RIGHT?" ---nervous

Think twice before you are so excited to risk your own health. If you aim to spend the rest of your life with your partner on the same bed, you and your partner shall voluntarily see the doctor, better safe than sorry later.

Some people claimed they are genius but they are so irresponsible for their sexual action. One of my male friend argued if you ask/persuade/force your partner to see a doctor, it means you don't trust your partner sincerely. He also added that we have to trust our partner based on "his or her words-of-mouth" if we really DO love him/her.

What a statement! For heaven's sake, we are not talking about trust, we are talking the matter for being safe.

The moral of the story: mm..nothing. Just be safe. I guess.

CrushCrushCrush - Paramore

Separated...relief relish John Edward

I have been following Mr. Edwards since his presidential campaign in 2004.

I think that Mr. Edwards is the type of husband I want to marry in the future. He is the type of family guy who adores his wife and loves the childrens and has an awesome job as a politician.

On top of that, Mr. Edwards is bloody handsome up till now even when he is a lot older. Mr. Edwards has a wise mature face that surely women would fall crazy over him. He has a sharp jaw and brilliant eyes that can blow your mind just by looking at it. So caring, so lovely.

For his age, he is considered HOT just like my fav. singer, Michael Bolton. Frankly, I started adoring Michael Bolton after he cut short his sick-gross long blond hair-yucky.

I am against men-with-long-hair. They are just sick human being who have plenty of dandruffs and lices all over their oily head. Let the lices suck the blood and become fat. They are fugly and gross to the max..eww.Nuff said.

It's ok aight to dream...

Ladies, shall you be interested in Mr. Edwards? Some might say, EWW..he is fugly old and smells like soil. But, Are u SURE??? Will you be sure you will have NO interest at all even if he talk to you face to face?

Only sick ladies have no desire. Oh well, go away sick ladies, shushh, go dig a hole and play with rubbish.

I think Elizabeth Edwards is lucky to have him.

Is John Edwards lucky to have Elizabeth? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....*long pause

I dont know, maybe, when she was younger back in 70's. I saw the picture of Elizabeth when she was young and she is pretty. Oh well, I think they deserve each other.

I can assure you tons of women would die for Mr. Edward.

Yes, including me! *peace

He is the type of man that all I can say is, "Please, marry me, Mr. Edwards!!!", and I am nobody but a huge fan of him. If he was not married and I was much older than my current age maybe in mid 30's and if I had the opportunity to be closed with him, I would definitely look for Mr. Edward and compete with other women to win his heart.

Enough for the compliment =) Let's talk about the reality.

Sigh, however, the truth about Mr. Edwards has ruined the role model of my dream husband. He is just another douche bag who have hurt the sweetest lady on the planet earth. He cheated on his wife. That's the problem.

Mr. fugly Edward had an affair with the camerawhorewoman.

John Edward admitted to his wife yaddaa yadda..."It was a short trip". He indeed quit.

Fortunately, Elizabeth has a golden heart and she forgave Edwards. But the problem is getting worse when the camerawhoreman confronted Mr. Edwards with the baby, the fruit of their extramarrital relationship.

Did John admit he is the biggest liar in history? NO
but is he the father? yes, indeed.

He finally admitted to public that he is the father of the innocent baby girl, just last week. Why did he wait for 3 years for a confession?

Because miss camerawhorewoman was threatening him. She wanted to get the most out of Mr. Edwards. Oh well, she went to public anyways. This statement boils into one conclusion, who doesnt love money and popularity? *snap

Finally,Today, Mr. and Mrs. Edwards are officially divorced. John Edwards will carry the burden for the rest of his life.

I dont know how to express my deep deepest sympathy to Elizabeth Edwards. Poor Mrs. Edwards. She is battling breast cancer since back in 2004, and her husband in lieu of doing his job as a loyal husband, he was engaged in a short trip pleasure with the camerawhorewoman Dang....

As a woman, I felt hurt. I wonder how my marriage will be. If my husband is bloody handsome and so attractive and when both of us are getting older, will he seek for a pleasure from another woman?

I will be old and fat like an old hag and my husband is a muscle toned. That's dangerous!! I definitely need to prepare for it. I can't think what I am supposed to do, but I will figure out soon. Or, should I look for a man who is less attractive to protect the loyal zone?

Is that true that Men are more attractive when they are getting old (in their mid-40's). The opposite for women, women are less atractive when they are older?

Obvious example, Barrack Obama, Michael Bolton, Will Smith, Johnny Depp. Hawt!!! They are in mid 40's and 50's.

Pamela Anderson in 2010? Hyukkk....(vomit)

Anyways, in general, Men just cannot be trusted. I doubt to unleash them. They would pull out their mini gun whenever they see opportunity for fresh meat.

Speaking of fresh meat, I can tell why Mr. Edward would go for another women, here are the two reasons I can think of on top of my head:

1. His wife is battling breast cancer so she cannot give Mr. Edward a hot bloody exciting sex like many stars doing it in porn movie. Surely, Mr. Edward was desparate of his need and voila he and that camerawhorewoman was at the same location, same time.

2. Who is not attracted to John Edward? That Camerawhorewoman is bloody lucky and she is a lot younger than his wife. Fresh meat for John Edward.

Let's be upfront, If you were a man in mid 50's will you choose Miss camerawhorewoman (who is fit and toned) over Mrs. Edward? Just, be honest. Well, to me- neither, I would go for someone who is a lot younger than Miss Camerawhorman. I would go with Angelina Jolie.

p/s the stupid bandana (rag) miss camerawhorwoman wearing at the interview really turned me off. I think Mr. Edward is blind. I dont see at which point John Edwards sought miss camerawhorewoman is hot/pretty. She is fugly. If I were Mr. Edwards, I would look for a hottie, maybe like a playboyhouse mate. Going out with miss camerawhorewoman is downgrading.

I would like to know if there is a true love. A love; the super-handsome husband would take care of his wife when the wife is old and completely ill. Will he be faithfull regardless of spouse flabby figure?Is there anything like this in reality? please for the sake of all the good stuff on this planet, i would like to know!

Speaking of a good stuff, last week, I went to a dinner with my friend and we ordered shitty steak. The steak is not important but I came up with a conclusion that there are 4 matters that are important in a relationsip:

1. Financial
2. Partners physical attribute
3. Sex
4. Odor..(I just added) Partner might leave the spouse who have rubbish breath.

and, my friend added something and please I didnt meant to offend anyone:

According to "a survey", people prefer to have sex with someone who has STD rather than with obese people*. WTF

EWW...I would rather die alone if I have to deal with these two.

Does anyone else think Heath Ledger resembles Michael Bolton?

A very Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone

Thank you for the outrageous dinner invitation, but, would like to apologize, I still can't make it.

I didnt mean to reject your kindness (no offense) but my personal issue forced me to stay out off of it. I know you will be reading my blog in a matter of time. I hope you can understand my situation.

I am in Mars, now, but I will be back soon. I will see you next year. I promise.

"Writers are engineers of the soul"

Random Thought

Several random thoughts from an article in a magazine I found interesting...

1. Peoplet whom you trust the most will eventually reveal your biggest secret, do you agree?

2. Do you agree, the more time people spent to remind each other to keep "their little secret", these secret will be revealed faster in a matter of time

3. Can you trust 100% somebody? except for your family and God?

4. Have you ever realized, after expressing your feeling/secret to your friends. It turned out, your friends were the most culprit on the planet?

They revealed your deep darkest secret to the community. From nowehere, someone asked you a question about your emberrassing secret.

When you confronted this person from where he or she got the information, he or she would say a name that you just could not believe it.

5. Have you ever felt that your life suddenyl changed and you discovered that it was actually part of a game. Someone was enjoying the game she or he created.

A game that lead to a big misunderstood between two innocent pals.

A person who preached a lot about religion-good faith, about a healthy lifestyle, a person who "we thought" has a good wisdom and wanted to make surrounding happy.

Actually, this person had spread the most contagious virus in a community

6. One week vaction is enough. Two will cause a fight.

7. Officemate is awesome blossom

8. Will you be able to handle your own debt once you are granted with a creditcard?

The worst case, how are you going to survive if you have a huge debt more than your paycheck?

You have $6,000 debt over from the reckless spending.

You know you wont be able to pay it unless you are willing sacrifice your self working 90hr/wk (which is impossible).

Are you planning to use creditcard until it hit the credit limit? And, you go back to your home country and leave all the debt in the United States?

how about to those finance students who are excel at finance courses but cannot handle their own financial problems?

9. Believe in Karma?

Lambada!!!!

Some events occured this weekend,

1. friend's visiting

2. another friend is leaving

3. new people

4. a stranger

5. neigbor yelling and I could hear the conversation coz the wall is so thin

I wanted to learn how to bake/ make pie. I got the pie inspiration from waitress movie, such a daring movie. I love it. Pizookie's fall in love Cherry Pie, Bon Voyage friendship banana pudding pie, Missing someone over the rainbow bluberry pie, lol.....

and, some Restaurants in Norman that I am really desperate to try:

1. Fancy That Cafe

2. Pink Elephant Cafe

3. Mama Veca

4. Interurban

5. Jimmy's Egg

6. Bevenutti's

and...I really wanted to get out of Oklahoma ASAP!!! Rescue me please!!!!!

Long journey to library

Today, I had a feeling that I might hit somebody's car (lol). I thought about it on the way to the office. Wonder, if that was just a feeling or, could it be a hint or a sign? I probably need to be aware of whatever moving. Sounds weird.

Thinking, it wouldn't occur. Thinking, it might just my negative aura. Voila, De Ja vu!

Ok...see this is how it went. I was going to turn left on the way to library and I didnt realize that the green light means yield, to let the driver from the opposite direction come first.

I wasnt paying attention and I didnt expect there was a driver coming across to my way. Damn!

I suddenly stopped and thanked god, this old man was clever enough to immediately stop. He gave me a look, like full of hatred. I swear he was cursing at me. ayayaya....

Fortunately, he was cursing inside his car...obviously, How could i listen to the cursing? *grin

The reason I went to library because library has a DVD collection.

Some of the dvds are new from this year. Good deal. I could save some money by borrowing dvd from library instead of purchasing dvd 99 cent 4 times a week from 7-11.

I knew that public library collected dvd but I forgot. I remembered it again after I "accidentally" went to my friend's facebook profile.

Long story, shortly, my friend was the one who introduced me with the free dvd from library.

I was allowed to borrow up to 4 dvds. This is what i got for today:
1.Becoming Jane
2. Australia
3. The visitors
4. Fest of Love

I just finished watching "Becoming Jane". I stil don't like it. I loved the wardrobe not the story plot. *sighh.....

a nice quote from "Becoming Jane" :

Affection is desirable...^^

Thought about Lust, Caution....^^


Note: Worth to see!!

"...intense, psychologically intricate and sexually explicit..."

The Reader

Yesterday, I watched The reader on DVD, starring kate winslet.

It was not a bad movie like what I thought before. In fact, it is very intriguing. I really liked it until the movie hit the ending.

I was a little bit disappointed, maybe frustrated? I was expecting for a different ending. But, overall, I agreed, The reader is a beautiful movie. It vividly described a love from someone to somebody else endlessly...(blah..)

If friends asked me to see it, I dont mind to see it again.

The next day, I saw Harry Potter - half blood prince. Hmm, what can i say about this one? sigh,

Unfortunately, I dont really like it. Maybe, from the beginning, i was already skeptical and this feeling went through till the ending.

I was abosulutely disappointed. In fact, I was confused with the rating from tommatoesrotten. Harry Poter got 85% tomatoes? HUH?

I believed Yahoo rating is more reliable, Harry poter was rated B. Not even close to B+. I admitted, I was a harrypotter fan way back then like in 2000-s, but it seems im more interested in twilight?

maybe Jacob hot muscles influenced my perception about twilight? LOL....

Now, I am thinking what movie I am going to see tomorrow or thursday or friday. Here is the list:

1. Julie and Julia (75% tomatoes)
2. Vicous Circle (A - yahoo!)
3. Night at the museum: Battle of the smithsonian (B+ / 44% huh?)
4. Paper Heart
5. I love you man -- I really wanted to see i love you mann..!!
6. Sunshine cleaning

Btw, I almost picked angels and demonds today. I decided not to because their rating was so bad. I checked on rottentomatoes 36% and B- on yahoo rating.

But, Im sure I will definitely see it someday.

I feel a lot better since last month. Now, I have more time for meditation, yoga, relaxation, watching dvd.

I usually didn't have time to do all those stuff, but now I have plenty of time to calm myself. I felt a lot better.

I can study with a clear mind. Except for my mexican neighbors (there are more than one mexican) who played latin music sooooo loud in the middle of night.

Wondering, nobody complained about it..*peace

Do you always believe when people say you are not fat?

Do you believe when people say, "Oh sweetie...you are not fat at all!! you are slim and you have an awesome body"

Rule 1
But, then you realized you really gained 10 pounds and you knew it. I mean, you felt it. That's how I feel right now. My friends kept saying that I am not fat and I am slim. They claimed they did not see any difference. They were showing confused face of why I am so obsessed to lose weight. Holy Moly Cow..do you believe that? Seriously, it's not about what people said, it's about how you feel inside. You knew it that you wanted to lose weight.

Rule 2
Maybe, my friends were comparing my size with american average size. In that case, yeah...du'h with my current weigh, I am considered "Slim but not Skinny" category. BUT, according to asian standard, I am slightly overweight. My mom told me I have to lose certain lbs. She is damn right! With my current size, I cannot shop for jeans in Indonesia.

I used to pretend "very happy" with my extra weigh and.....very confident say,"Yes, I am very happy with my body size" Do you believe in that? Do you believe that I was really happy inside??? Don't you think I always wanted to slim down as well.

Rule 3
My friend has a wise thought and this is what she shared with me. "We only live once". It's not late to improve yourself. One of my life wisdom, I always wanted to look nice, slim, and healthy. I do not believe with "I will do it tomorrow". Err...like "I will exercise tomorrow". The most important is to have a will that I really wanted to have a healthy slim body and nice thighs.

Rule 4
Seriously, every individual has the ability to have a healthy body and nice slim thighs. However, everything depends on the diet lifestyle. If everyday I ate junk foods and slighlty of fiber, I would gain weight faster. If I stopped working out, I would definitely have a flabby thigh and tummy.

For me, if I keep the meal portion in rational size and have time to exercise, my body will not blow up. I am what I eat. It's all about discipline. Seriously, everything must be obtained from such a hard work.

Rule 5
There is no such an easy way to get rid off extra baggage. Discipline, consistent, and be rationale of what we eat. Do you believe that you can lose weight 20 lbs in 1 week?? NO WAY to lose weight in short period!!! You will eventually gain weight double than your current size. It takes time to get an awesome result. Diet supplement is good to fasten the metabolism but once again it has to be balanced with work out.

Rule 6
Awesome song to work out..!!!